AI helps me understand my inner world!

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 AI helps me understand my inner world!

OK, so, my Littles have been trying to explain to me what their first protectors look like.

I have always been a little reticent, admittedly. Mainly because my artistic skills are somewhat lacking … but also because I don’t know anyone that can draw for me … And I must confess I don’t understand them (the kids) in much depth (it’s more a visceral, primal connection), which I obviously try to remedy 😬

But they kept at it, of course, as kids should … so we started trying some AI. I got bored pretty quickly but they kept learning tirelessly … and as I am a kinda grandad … I smile and endured, so to speak.

And we got some good results. We used anime style because it is the one the littles like the most.

Ghost

So, this is Ghost. The very first protector for our babies and toddlers

And of course, they’re great with kids of all ages …

Apparently, Ghost used to take the kids on long dissociative journeys to wondrous lands … Something similar to child’s astral travels from the memories they shared with me. They do like to join in when we meditate, so Ghost could be a very good explanation of why they enjoy it and seem to be so familiar with it … and even why we can achieve such deep meditative states so consistently (we are not monks!).

Gargoyle

Our Gargoyles can actually have rather scary vibes. But not to the littles.

They are reassuringly scary …

When these gentle Spirits hold the little ones, all their pain goes away.

No pain of any kind. Just blissful nothingness. Respite.

So, Thank you Ghost and Gargoyles for keeping our children safe. I am very glad I got to know more about you guys,

And the Littles are happy, so we are all happy! 😁💜


AI helps me understand my inner world! Part 2

OK, so, in part 2 of my littles’ protector we get the other 2 weirdly introjected wonderful creatures that have been helping the young ones in their times of need.

The images are in the style that the little understand and can explain easily. I have to admit that I don’t really understand how they experience it other than their narrative and shared emotions.

I am sort of familiar with Ghost but only as a familiarity rather than a shared experience.

The next two are the Dark Twins and The Fog.

The Fog

I think The Fog came to soothe the angry and sad personalities that were developing quite early on. The Fog was designed to induce a state of torpor and assuage the overwhelmingly destructive feelings they were dealing with at the time.

The littles like the Rowdy Three in Dirk Gently and have used that as an example of how The Fog works.

And that always filled me with fear. The thought that something so destructive could be considered soothing by little children always drove me close to tears. But their pictures now make it look and feel comforting and soothing.

And I am reassured that they found ways to be loved.

Dark Twins

I have mixed feelings about these two. They are VERY sweet and endearing. But they are the Dark Twins. One longs for unliving, the others sees opportunities everywhere and always plans inventive and foolproof ways of ending what other people would not.

They were created because at one point the littles’ distress was so intense that even The Fog was powerless to help.

The Dark Twins gave the young ones an outlet to express their feelings, and eventually they were ready to succumb to the sleepy embrace of The Fog.

Mulling over the past

I do often feel inadequate. I do become many hosts, and they each have their own crowds. And even so, there is so much that I don’t know about our system, our past, our strength, resilience, and endurance.

While becoming aware of the Protectors, I have also learnt some sketchy details of the reasons why they were created, and what my littles endured.

While I am heartbroken that they suffered so much, I am also filled with immense pride of how much they are able to survive, of their indomitable spirits.

So, Thank you Protectors of the littles for keeping our children safe. I am very glad I got to know more about you guys,

And thank you Littles we love you. Thank you for sharing! 😁💜



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