Auti-multiplicity

Sometimes we try to intentionally trigger painful flashbacks. There are a number of reasons why that might be the case. It does depend on how one processed the trauma, and where one is on their healing journey. Here I am going to give you just one theory. 🙂 Background So, let’s start by saying that it is now fully acknowledged that personalities are naturally made up of parts . So, for example, let’s pretend that we find a person sexy, but we know they have a repulsive personality. Our decision of having sex with them depends on whether our horny part or our sensible one wins the internal debate.  However, these parts can actually take on lives of their own when we move on to trauma. Let’s start with the “basic” PTSD-inducing trauma, which causes primary dissociation . During trauma, our part-system creates a new part to handle the trauma. A so called Emotional Part. Now that part holds on to the all the neurological configuration at the time of the traumatic event. This in...

This is a tricky one for us. There is an ambivalence, a conflict of interests, so to speak. Let me explain. Sometimes I agree with the experts, some others I vehemently don’t … however DDs come on such a high spectrum that I do not discount anything. Likely, everything is possible and valid. Also, my answer revolves around my current knowledge. I might change my mind on some details as I become more knowledgeable. But so, let’s get down to it. Memories are what gives us and hold together our identity. In fact, each memory holds a slice of our identity. A memory is not simply an anecdotal reference. It contains important information relating a person state of mind, way of thinking, feeling, perspective, and much more. And that is why the most basic dissociative defence is to break down the memories into harmless chunks (dissociative amnesia). I think this is what is meant when people talk about a “fragments”. Certainly that is the case for me. In fact, before the age of 3, and possibly ...