ID 103: Table of Contents

 

Couldn't fit this on the whiteboard!

ID 103 is a collective work. I don't really know who writes, or whose thoughts they are. The writing simply offers a consensus of all the parts that are sharing the now space at the time of writing. 

If I had to describe it, it feels like many diverging thoughts and ideas converging to a central point from different areas of my brain; as they merge they reach a consensus that I then type. I am uncertain whether this concept can be understood, but I can kind of see how it could happen in an artificial neural network, hence assume it is possible in a biological one.

I will add stuff as we go along. I am hoping that soon it will be fully up to date. From that point onward it will be a matter of new discoveries, and finding out more and more.

In the meantime, this is the structure of the document:


  1. Summary
  2. Neuro: There is no I in ME
  3. September 28, 2022
  4. Lil’ One
  5. Toddler
  6. 9
  7. #1
  8. 11
  9. 14
  10. Iena
  11. System 0
  12. System 1
  13. System 2
  14. System 3
  15. System 4
  16. System 5 (a.k.a. V5)
  17. System 6
  18. Super-system
  19. The Host
  20. Selves, characters, and frozen selves
  21. The “now-space”
  22. The “mid-space”
  23. The “mind-space”
  24. Switching
  25. New Selves
  26. Nouns and Pronouns
  27. 10/12/2022 Random thought (whose?)

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